"My Husband"

 Growing up  with phisical, emotional and mental abuse, and seeing how the women in my family had to suffer due to their so called "men" I  promised to never "let myself" because even though the men are to blame for thair actions the women are at fault for alowing it.   Dom (my fiance) says,  "Fisrt time shame on you, second time shame on me," and he also says, "You take what you can handle"  Hello! That makes sense right? And this is coming from a man! I lost so much respect for my mother because she "let herself"  and we argued about it but thank God that we became so close before she passed.  Im just saying that she deserved so much better in life, and I wish she would have wanted the same for herself.  ladies! I am a strong, beautiful, powerfull women, I am a Queen and I demand to be treated like one. With that attitude i have a man who treats me like one and gives me flowers everyday.  Too bad he cant cook!. Ha,Ha!  Come on ladies! Dont be afraid to ask for what you want.  "Say it loud and say it proud!"
 Anyways,  look! if you have kids and they have to see, or hear any kind of abuse then think of what they might say when they grow up to be adults or better yet how will they turn out themselves? I  am far from perfect and i had to grow up being violent myself because of it, but ever since  Dom came into my life and i had children i have changed so much.  All i can do is move foward, and be "damn" proud of myself and my family.  I just wish my mother was here to see me, but she is in a far better place then she ever was here on earth. Women are so afraid to leave their husbands cuz they are afraid of what other people might think of them because of a "Faild marrige", and they feel that they are better or complete with having "A husband." If only they knew what people thought of them now,  and let me tell you that in any family everyone knows everyones buissness, so dont try to "Fake the funk." I had a conversation with a friend who was leaving her man who was no good to her. I told her that she better leave cuz if not then all shes doing is telling her daughter to take a good hard look at her future cuz thats what she will be putting up with. I also told her if she thinks people are talking about how bad he is she is wrong because imagine what they are saying about you.  I dont need a man to make me feel complete, or special, or wanted. I havn't gotten married to my fiance because of all have have seen my mother and the women in my family go through, and i never want to make that mistake, so i am going to take my time. I will eventually when im ready, but too bad my mom won't be here to see it.